It’s been all about my Independent Study project + of which I have no idea what I’m doing right now + and my proposal is void + but the good news is that my school is ever so helpful + since I knew I wanted to concentrate on my darkroom technique + and I wanted to work on 35mm as well as 120mm I got a sweet loaner to practice on + yes it’s a Mamiya 645 + which I was very hesitant about because of how the film loads + I just wanted to get a cheap Fujica Rangefinder style camera + that loaded like a 35mm with a fixed lens + but taking the recommendation of my classmates + and stepping up to the challenge + I decided to work with the behemoth + the Mamiya is heavier than any camera I’ve ever used + I was up until 1am this morning trying to figure out how to load it + while wasting some expired 120mm film from 2 years ago + oh what fun + and I just love the challenge of figuring out the camera + the more I get stuck on a function + the more I read + and the harder I work to figure it out + processing will be another challenge separating the paper from the film + but I’m up for it + and I’ve already ordered 4 rolls of 120mm film + and some Ilford Pearl finish paper + I just can’t wait to start something.
Yes it’s that time I’ve dreaded + and I know for most people finishing any degree program is A.W.E.S.O.M.E. + however for me it’s more of “what do I do with myself now” + on the education totem pole I clearly have a long way to go + but right now I’m at the corner of Associates and Bachelors + and trying to figure out if I want to wait a semester, or year, or longer + before I continue on this long road. I know I’m not getting any younger + and my tolerance level is just not what it use to be.
First and foremost my goals have changed while attending college part-time (for several years) + and viewing the real outlook of a Photographer in Media and Design + let’s just say “Quitting my full-time gig with paid leave and benefits is not happening” + Let’s face it + if your taking up photography your doing it for the love of it + not for the glory or fame + with every cell phone and electronic device competing for the spotlight + this game is for seasoned photographers + I’ve seen some fantastic photography on media sights like Flickr and there are several hundred skilled photographers creating breath-taking images + hell….I’m working with a fellow student now who’s created a new double printing method which makes his black and white images spectacular.
I have to thank photography + because it’s opened up some great opportunities for me + the classes and instruction have not just tuned me in + but have allowed me to learn what my camera can do + and how to print the perfect image and control the outcome + rather than sitting and waiting for some other outlet to produce your images.
The fact is at this point…I just can’t imagine doing anything else + and with that said I’m still debating on finishing my last two years at some University + but I seriously need to decompress before I jump back into things full throttle + As an adult I love school (who can say that) + I thrive in it which is so weird because I hated school when I was a teenager + so for now “school is out” for the time being + until I embark on another A.W.E.S.O.M.E. adventure…
As summer winds down + and September approaches + I start to appreciate my quiet evenings + I’m not ending it with a “bang” but on an even note + I can’t even give it a high note at this point + with my bathroom still being worked on and all my other summer projects and issues + I also have a proposal due for independent study + and no medium format camera purchased to start my independent study project + all I can do is just close my eyes + pour a nice big glass + and end this week with the smooth sounds of Nancy, Ella and the ladies of jazz + what’s on my playlist…
- Ella at Duke’s Place
- Jazz Ladies (Fitzgerald + Vaughan + McRae) Note: This is one is a reblog from 2 weeks ago + however when you love something you just can’t get enough of it + so it’s always on my playlist
- The Best of Nancy Wilson
- Nancy Wilson / Cannonball Adderley